Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Reevaluate

Just getting by. Barely. So time to rethink it all. Which means, hiatus. Scrap. Work. Blog. Fitness. Health. Family. Balance.

Doing lots of things right now barely if at all just to get by. Gotta find my passion again cause this ain't it. And I've NEVER been here before. He says it is part of growing up (oh come on...I'm just BARELY 'grown up' lol). I say I've overstayed my cycle (no, not THAT cycle...my general life cycles). In any event, something very soon has to change.

And rather than sitting here on the blog lamenting and gettin' all "woe is me" (DAMN you Texas...DAMN you!), I need to get out from in front of the screen and go DO something about it. Now.

So I'm going to get to work early today. I'm going to walk some of those catch up miles at lunch. Then I'm going to walk LOTS of miles tonight. First and only priority. walk and clear the head. It's all foggy and frosted over this morning. Perfect walking day.

Wedding planning is in full force, wedding blog updated, private site updated, I just won a really cool website, so will get that coordinated for the public internet space. That's another thing. No more incognito. You want me, you know where to find me. I've usually been pretty open and all, but last year, about October, that became a dangerous thing to be (scrapbooking and full life and all). I think I'm safe enough to not get knifed over a contest anymore. But then there I go thinking again.

Stay safe. Stay fun. Sorry to "end" on a bit of a downer, but few more blogs to update and then it's on.

1 comment:

Liz Beth said...

I know you dont want to hear this, but "he" is right. Its called a milestone, a place where you recognize that life is not what you thought it would be, and you have to reconcile that to your existence so you can move on. The passion of your "youth" disipates when your life settles out, marriage, steady job, steady life, all contribute to that feeling that the "passion" has somehow been lost, when in fact what was lost was the "drama", not the same thing, but it sure feels like it.

You have to find new "passions" but you won't find them in the "old" places. Be careful you don't go into "self-destruct" mode which means don't look for whats wrong, where nothing IS wrong.